Try my best
From the time I started my college life, my passion for life is gone. Thinking back, no matter how much I hated the test system, it's still quite true that was the best time in my life— I tried my best to solve every problem, and I got inspiration about the meaning of life from time to time—I did enjoy that way of living, but why did I lose the direction in college which I longed for so much in senior high?
Recalling the scenes from Ikiru directed by Akira Kurosawa, when Mr. Watanabe knew he could live no longer than 6 months, he suddenly realized that “I just can't die -- I don't know what I've been living for all these years ”. This quote resonates in my head whenever I feel lost.
Back in senior high, my goal was clearly set, and I was satisfied enough just to fight for it. But college life gave me so many choices that I couldn't keep track of time and most importantly, my focus. I tried many but then dropped them the next day!There is no way I will be truly satisfied without trying my best to pursue a goal. l finally realized it, though through the hard way.
I wanna find what I really love and be satisfied, and I'll try my best to find it out!