Try my best.

Try my best

From the time I started my college life, my passion for life is gone. Thinking back, no matter how much I hated the test system, it's still quite true that was the best time in my life— I tried my best to solve every problem, and I got inspiration about the meaning of life from time to time—I did enjoy that way of living, but why did I lose the direction in college which I longed for so much in senior high?

Recalling the scenes from Ikiru directed by Akira Kurosawa, when Mr. Watanabe knew he could live no longer than 6 months, he suddenly realized that “I just can't die -- I don't know what I've been living for all these years ”. This quote resonates in my head whenever I feel lost.

Back in senior high, my goal was clearly set, and I was satisfied enough just to fight for it. But college life gave me so many choices that I couldn't keep track of time and most importantly, my focus. I tried many but then dropped them the next day!There is no way I will be truly satisfied without trying my best to pursue a goal. l finally realized it, though through the hard way.

I wanna find what I really love and be satisfied, and I'll try my best to find it out!

9/25,2010

My Opinion On Piracy

 I've just come across a statement saying out my mind from http://www.webtvwire.com/who-said-everyone-who-watches-pirate-video-is-lazy-mike-did/.

Your argument is wrong. Period.
Pirating is wrong. Period.
If you do not like the price of a DVD or the manner in which it is distributed, then don’t buy it. If no one buys it, the distributor will change so they can make money. It belongs to them. It does not belong to you. I’m sure you’d be pretty upset if you made something so that you could sell it and make some money to feed you and your family and along comes someone that copies it and gives it away.
Too many people want everything for nothing. Lazy people have no purpose.

Why I'm Here To Live?

   Born from China ,both of my body and souls have been taken by the Communist Party.

But just as India's Gandhi  and Miyazaki's Chihiro,I must first struggle to be a good slave--keeping the fact that I'm still one of human beings in mind,a way out may be found!

   Compared to other fellows,though,I still own the ability to think about my life.

 Many times ,I was proud of that fact--yeah ,the fact that I'm still a thoughtful slave! What a great joke--given all the convenience around me, why  can't I struggle to find my real life on  the promised land?

   Then ,what am I living for ? For people who have cared about me? For fighting back to do my justice ?What's my justice ? Having lived in prison for more than 19 years,I'm already one those killers!How can a killer have the right to ask for rights back from those 'He' is killing?Joke!

   Since I have nothing--so I have nothing to lose.Isn't this great? Yeah! Great enough to give myself a thousand reasons to commit suicide a thousand times!

  Maybe I haven't the courage to kill a person!

  Maybe there's still sth to keep me alive--to gain enough skills to ensure my coming life's freedom,to protect my loving ,to help others,or ---

  Then why am I still goofing off everyday to wander in the world?

  Am I still wishing a quiet life in the countryside?It's clear that that I do only have  two choices: to be excellent to protect myself ,to be a total slave to harm more people----Everything is as clear as cloud ,so ,Why am I still here to live is not such a difficult problem.

   I wish so.